So no test today.

I already know I'm pregnant. I have 1 test left and I don't want to take it while the line will still be faint, will give it a few more days so I can get a blunt POSITIVE. I feel pretty good. I feel content again. I feel hopeful, knowing the things I know now about miscarriage and rates. Odds are we will have a happy healthy baby.

I'm going to create a spreadsheet with some of my favorite names to share with my hubby :P

I came across this: http://blogspot.sharedbook.com/blog2print/googleblogger/index.html

I'm so printing this blog as a keepsake when we finally have our baby!!!

Doughnuts

So today I ate terribly. I've had 4 chocolate covered doughnuts and... that's about it.

Terrible!

No more days like today! Ever!!

47 to 137!!

I called the dr's office and surprisingly my results are in! My beta-HCG levels rose from 47 on Monday to 137 - almost triple!

Yes, a new pregnancy! Definitely pregnant!! I don't think I could get enough confirmations before it sinks in really. Each new confirmation makes me more excited.

I was so happy it brought tears to my eyes. I mean I knew it would be going up, but to hear it was something else!!

I hope this pregnancy keeps moving in this direction!

#4

Fourth Positive - Look it's darker!

So here's pregnancy test #4. This time the positive is a little darker - which is good! Had I had a normal cycle this last month I still wouldn't have expected a period until at least tomorrow earliest. My cycle runs from 32 to 37 days and tomorrow is 32, so getting positive tests so soon is a huge bonus. Although I would know by now that I'm pregnant again just from the symptoms I have already.

I woke up at around 4am because I felt like I had to pee SOO bad! Forced myself up out of bed into the cold, rummaged through the room for my robe, found my warm socks, stumbled into the bathroom and after all of that BARELY WENT! So there's more pressure on my bladder at this point. I remember this from the last pregnancy. From the plane to the Big Island I remember having to get up several times in the 5 hour flight. I remember throughout the trip feeling as though I had to go really bad but then would hardly urinate.

Last night I think the fatigue started in. At about 5pm I started feeling really tired and sleepy. I had plenty of sleep the night before and normally go to bed around 9. Will see if this one sticks or if I was just particularly tired yesterday.

I still have the super mild cramps (twinges) and I have absolutely no spotting anymore. That stopped about 3 days ago. Last time I was spotting every day the entire time the pregnancy was normal. It turned from spotting to bleeding the day before the actual miscarriage happened. So long as there's no red blood or bad cramps everything is ok!

I had a dream that there was a test you could take, like the pregnancy tests, that tells you if it's an ectopic pregnancy or not. I took the test and it said it was ectopic, so I called my doctor who started crying on the phone for me saying that after all of this, after finally being able to conceive a healthy baby, it's in the wrong place and has to be removed.

Nightmare!

Going to try calling the dr's office later to see if I could get my test results. I know my HCG levels are going up, but I'd like to hear it :P

Ouch!

I just got back from getting my blood drawn for my next HCG test. Ouch! This time it hurt! The needle was much larger and she did it so fast I swear I could feel my vein PUSH the blood right into the vial! Only took her a few seconds to fill the vial then that was that. Hurt when she pulled the needle out and it hurts now still. :*(

My pregnancy symptoms seem to be rising a bit starting last night. The mild cramps are more often now, mostly starting after I'm up for a few hours and getting more frequent as the day goes by. Really very mild, like someone poking my right side where I normally get period cramps. Not really painful, just "there." I'll know when something bad is happening when those lil pokes turn into period-like pains like before the miscarriage. I'm starting to have some mood swings now, too. Oh boy!

Today I feel rather irritated by everything. I've had worse irritability, but none in the last few weeks to speak of. Every little thing today makes me bark at something. I normally love listening to Devin go on and on and on about stuff, but today it was irritating (sorry hubby!) People on the road made me mad for small things. I would feel somewhat down one minute then happy and excited and hopeful the next. Just all over the place. Up then down then everywhere else.

My boobs are more sore now than before, too. Just keeps getting worse! I don't fit into my bras again. I can feel the strange tingling in them as they are preparing for a baby.

But all of this is a GOOD THING. That means I'm still pregnant!

Gross but Hilarious :P

The things I come across... sorry, this one was very funny (any guys reading this, feel free to skip to the next posting as it gets a bit "girly" here lol)

Source: http://www.gettingpregnant.co.uk/earlypregnancy.htm

"Mucus

You may have been charting your waking temperatures and cervical mucus while trying to conceive.  If not, and you find the concept of mucus a bit icky, you'd best get used to it, because it gets worse!!  Pregnancy is EXTREMELY biological, and not very glamorous!  Anyway, due to the increase in blood flow to the soft tissues of the body, you may well find that not only does your vaginal discharge increase (causing you to leave snail trails all over the place), but also your nasal mucus...  Nice.  There are some of us who have had a runny nose since conception...  It's nothing that can't be dealt with by a panty liner, although blowing your nose on one might get you a few strange looks.  As long as the vaginal mucus is clear or white, and doesn't smell nasty, it's nothing to worry about.  Just avoid sliding down banisters for a while."

Yup, still positive!

Test #3, another faint positive. BUT POSITIVE.

Waiting.

Waiting.

Waiting.

There it is! 4 minutes in, a faint positive again. I don't like how they are so faint. Although technically I'm still doing all of these tests early, I'm not expecting a period yet, I technically haven't missed one yet. But they're still positive!

Today I'm going in to have some more blood taken to test my HCG levels again. I hope they are going up! I certainly FEEL pregnant! I KNEW I was before I took the tests! I could FEEL it!

I don't have too many symptoms just yet. My cold is going away, so thank GOODNESS it's not a pregnancy symptom (Rhinitis - *shudders*) My breasts hurt again SO bad. Every day it gets worse. Even my bras hurt. I have light cramps in one side, like I had with the last one. So far everything feels normal. I can't wait for more symptoms :P

No seriously! I can't wait! Last time I was very irritated by the cramps, the chest tenderness the irritability. This time, I am thankful to feel any of it. Even morning sickness, bring it all on! It's ALL worth it! Every symptom is a reminder we are currently expecting. I want this one to work so bad! Of course I wanted the last one to work so bad as well. I had no idea I would actually miscarry our first baby. Everyone kept reassuring me, "You're fine! Nothing will happen! Taking all the pregnancy tests won't help anything, it won't just go away!" Well it did just go away. Something did happen. So I'm a bit nervous this time around!

Will probably go shower now so I can get my blood work out of the way. I don't feel like being out all day. Starting to feel a little better. Didn't have to wake up every 20 minutes to blow my nose. Didn't take any medication yesterday, except vitamin C and prenatal. Won't get my results for at least a few days, or maybe even when I have my appointment next week. Although I'm sure I could call and ask for the results, they gave them to me over the phone yesterday.

So, will write later!

More Blood Work and A Dr Appt

So the dr's office called me back today. They set up another blood test for me, I can go in anytime this week. They scheduled a follow up appointment with my regular doctor for next Wednesday to discuss the results and the new pregnancy. Hopefully everything will go ok!

I could technically go in today for the blood test. I would rather wait and go in tomorrow when the HCG levels have more time to rise rapidly. I'm so nervous that they will be going down, or stay the same. The woman on the phone told me it's possible to have residual levels. I hadn't had time to explain to her the new pregnancy symptoms or all of the negative tests, so I had to simplify it to her, then she agreed that yes it's a new pregnancy. I'm so nervous! I don't care about having the blood test taken, it's the results!

Please oh please let this be the one!

Pregnancy Rhinitis

So I developed a cold the last few days. It started as a bad sore throat from being around a smoker then turned into a nasty stuffy runny nose. I read online that nasal congestion is actually a pregnancy symptom and is triggered when the nasal passageway becomes irritated. I'm hoping this is just a cold!

If it's not a cold, it will last about 6 WEEKS. If it is a cold, it should go away within a week. I can't take any medication for it since it's all terrible while pregnant. Ugh! I guess it occurs in about 30% of all pregnancies and usually anytime in the pregnancy, from first trimester to third. I read the hormone imbalances cause your body to over react to the irritants.

Please be a cold! I don't think I could take 6 weeks of this!! Bring on the morning sickness instead! Oh no, what if I get BOTH! How terrible! lol. I had no morning sickness with my first pregnancy, I'm hoping this one is the same!

Definitely Pregnant!

So I spoke with the advice nurse this morning. I was very thorough in the details about all of my symptoms this last month. I really just needed to see if these tests were positive from the miscarriage. Turns out it's not! I'm pregnant!

My beta-HCG level on Monday was elevated at 47 - low because it's early. Anything above 25 is considered pregnant. Actually, that could be considered high. I'm estimating I am about 3 1/2 weeks now according to when we tried to conceive, and on average the results that early are anywhere between 5 and 50. At 4 weeks it will read between 5 and 426. So that's about right. That's why the tests were so faint. But positive!

The advice nurse said all they can do is monitor the levels, make sure they go up, at this point since it's so early. They can't see a heartbeat or do an ultrasound really until I'm around 6 weeks or more (even 8 weeks in some cases) and since they don't have a last cycle date for me it's more difficult to determine how far along I am or will be.

I am afraid to get excited about this one. Obviously it's implanted its self since I have the symptoms and the HCG went up, so that much is good. That doesn't mean so far it's ok. I could still have what's called a "chemical pregnancy" where after a week it doesn't really take so I will have what's like a period, and it's gone. So long as I don't have any cramps or bleeding I know the pregnancy is fine.

I want to be excited. I mean this could be our first baby! I want to shout it out to the world but I don't want to have to turn around and say, "Oh, nevermind."

So, here's hoping!!

Second Positive Test

Second Positive Test

So here it is, another faint positive. I'm going to call the Kaiser advice nurse sometime after the sun is up. Took this just after 4am, a lil early to be on the phone lol. Two must mean positive! Faint, but positive!

Positive Test

Faint positive pregnancy test taken today.

So this morning I took my last expensive pregnancy test leftover from when I bought a dozen when we first found out we were pregnant. Not expired, still in the box, sat at room temperature. It was a CVS "Early Result" Pregnancy Test. I've gotten really blunt positives on those tests when I was pregnant.

Well the test I took today showed a faint positive (not an evaporation, but a positive) after just a minute long. I waited the full 10 minutes, still the same. Today is 4 days before I would expect a period, so I'd expect the result to be faint. I'm not getting my hopes up just in case it's a false positive, like if the hormones rose up again from the miscarriage. I'm not sure they can rise like that, since now it's 21 days since I stopped bleeding all together (minus the faint spotting) or 30 days since the start of the miscarriage.

Either way, I took several tests a few weeks ago and they all came back negative, meaning the hormone had dropped below 20. Can they rise again from the miscarriage or could I be pregnant?

I'm going to take another test on Friday to see if I get a darker line. Darker means it's rising. This long after the miscarriage it would have to have fallen completely to zero already. I'll also check back for my bloodwork today. Going to check online at Kaiser's site for the results, if they post them today. SOO hoping they do!

Now that I've had a positive test, I'm literally dying to know! I feel SO anxious! I just want to know what is the next step to try and have a baby, whether I'm pregnant or not.

Will post later if I find out anything!

UPDATE:

Q: How soon after a miscarriage will an HPT be reliable?
A: It varies. Sometimes it takes awhile for hCG levels to go back to zero, so it is possible to get a positive HPT from a miscarriage for a month or more after a loss. If hCG levels were followed back to zero, then a positive HPT should indicate a new pregnancy.


So there's my answer, hopefully. The positive result cannot be from the miscarriage. I think I may be pregnant again! Still waiting for dr's results. UGH!

Blood Work

So today I had my blood taken for the first time. I was soooo incredibly nervous and all for nothing lol. Didn't hurt at all. I totally expected my arm to feel like it was being drained or shriveling up or something, but felt nothing lol. Whew! So now I wait. Again. Just waiting to see if my HCG levels are elevated at all still (or again) Will post again once I get the results.