I don't really like the term "blog." It sounds so... masculine. I've always kept online journals. It seemed that now was the appropriate time to start again. A lot has been happening and I feel it will help to jot my thoughts and feelings down as they occur.
My husband and I recently experienced a devastating loss. After 2 years of trying we finally found out we were pregnant in October. Just a few weeks after finding out, we miscarried. Nothing we could do. Chromosomal abnormalities. Blah blah blah.
I have never dealt with something of this nature before. I really don't know how to react. I have always been the strong one. I have always been the one people turn to for advice or strength. For once I'm not. Everything about this situation is so confusing. There are no clear cut answers. There is no "normal." There are no statistics to go off of. We just have to wait.
For those of you who know me, I don't wait. If I want something, I want it NOW. I am the queen of impatience. Now Mother Nature is forcing me to wait, and it's killing me. I have never felt so helpless over my situation.
It may be a good life lesson for me, however. To learn to wait. To learn to be patient. "Good things come to those who wait." blah blah blah.
