Ouch!

I just got back from getting my blood drawn for my next HCG test. Ouch! This time it hurt! The needle was much larger and she did it so fast I swear I could feel my vein PUSH the blood right into the vial! Only took her a few seconds to fill the vial then that was that. Hurt when she pulled the needle out and it hurts now still. :*(

My pregnancy symptoms seem to be rising a bit starting last night. The mild cramps are more often now, mostly starting after I'm up for a few hours and getting more frequent as the day goes by. Really very mild, like someone poking my right side where I normally get period cramps. Not really painful, just "there." I'll know when something bad is happening when those lil pokes turn into period-like pains like before the miscarriage. I'm starting to have some mood swings now, too. Oh boy!

Today I feel rather irritated by everything. I've had worse irritability, but none in the last few weeks to speak of. Every little thing today makes me bark at something. I normally love listening to Devin go on and on and on about stuff, but today it was irritating (sorry hubby!) People on the road made me mad for small things. I would feel somewhat down one minute then happy and excited and hopeful the next. Just all over the place. Up then down then everywhere else.

My boobs are more sore now than before, too. Just keeps getting worse! I don't fit into my bras again. I can feel the strange tingling in them as they are preparing for a baby.

But all of this is a GOOD THING. That means I'm still pregnant!

More Blood Work and A Dr Appt

So the dr's office called me back today. They set up another blood test for me, I can go in anytime this week. They scheduled a follow up appointment with my regular doctor for next Wednesday to discuss the results and the new pregnancy. Hopefully everything will go ok!

I could technically go in today for the blood test. I would rather wait and go in tomorrow when the HCG levels have more time to rise rapidly. I'm so nervous that they will be going down, or stay the same. The woman on the phone told me it's possible to have residual levels. I hadn't had time to explain to her the new pregnancy symptoms or all of the negative tests, so I had to simplify it to her, then she agreed that yes it's a new pregnancy. I'm so nervous! I don't care about having the blood test taken, it's the results!

Please oh please let this be the one!

Blood Work

So today I had my blood taken for the first time. I was soooo incredibly nervous and all for nothing lol. Didn't hurt at all. I totally expected my arm to feel like it was being drained or shriveling up or something, but felt nothing lol. Whew! So now I wait. Again. Just waiting to see if my HCG levels are elevated at all still (or again) Will post again once I get the results.

Dr. Appt

So I called the advice nurse yesterday and got passed around a bit. The first lady I spoke to told me there's no way the bleeding I've been having is a period. That a period, even if only 9 days after the end of the miscarriage, would be much heavier at least one day out of the 9 I've been spotting. That it may just be regular spotting, which is normal, may not mean anything, particularly because it's not heavy. They didn't tell me what it could be (probably because there could be so many different answers...) so they scheduled an appointment for me to have my blood drawn Monday to test the HCG levels, to see if they've fallen below 5 like they should have. My sister says if they are a bit higher they will test again in a few days to see if they are rising or falling, even slightly. My worry is that I'm pregnant again so they will see the levels rise. I don't want them to assume it's from the miscarriage and have a D&C when really it's a new pregnancy. Like I said, we tried like mad this month to conceive again.

Every single Thursday haunts me. I should be another week along - at this point I should be 10 weeks pregnant, but I'm not. I've felt the pregnancy, I've felt the symptoms, and now I have nothing to show for it. I feel soo empty inside. I honestly never thought I could feel this way.

I really don't think this is from the miscarriage at all. I have heard that if the miscarriage doesn't complete, your body will still think it's pregnant, so you will still feel pregnant, since a small amount of tissue will be drawing blood from the uterus, it will be producing the HCG hormone, and you'll feel pregnant. I've taken several pregnancy tests, all have come back negative since right after the miscarriage (I got one with a very faint line, then the following all came up neg) Only this last week have I started having pregnancy symptoms again.

They may even just be regular cycle symptoms. The one thing that stands out is my breast tenderness. After I got pregnant last time, I could feel them engorge themselves. I could feel them almost fill up with whatever they fill up with. I felt them get bigger. I could literally feel everything. Then they were SORE. They have never hurt so bad in my life! Immediately following the miscarriage I could feel them shrink back down. I could feel them recede. I could feel whatever it was leaving them. It felt like they were being deflated back into my body again. I felt the twinges from them shrinking.

Well now, I feel them twinging again. This time they're getting bigger, like when I was pregnant. They are sore, but not as sore as the first time. All but the last 3 years have they gotten sore for my period, but it was tolerable and I never felt any twinges. This is different. The pain is different, not just a soreness. I've only had this with being pregnant.

So maybe I am pregnant again? I can't take a test to know for sure until at least December 1st, which will be approximately 4 days before my supposed first period should arrive (32 days after the miscarriage - I know the miscarriage shouldn't act like a milestone for a previous period, but I have nothing else to go on) December 1st is also 2 weeks after the last day we tried to conceive, so there should be enough HCG for a home pregnancy test. Otherwise, if it's negative, I'll take another test in a week if there's still no period.

I don't think the blood test on Monday will show anything for the miscarriage. This spotting does not feel that way, it just feels like spotting. Like the nurse said, is normal. There's no cramps, and it's completely minuscule. I've read if the miscarriage is not complete, your body will try even harder to get rid of it, so it will hurt more than the initial miscarriage. I have no cramping at all, aside from the one day I had slight cramps. And there's not enough blood. Your body will bleed and bleed and bleed. I'm not.

So we'll see. Just have to wait again. I hate waiting SO bad!!!